Another source of pain was being around 4 new babies for the afternoon. My heart was very sore by the end of the time. I felt very inadequate that I couldn’t be part of this ‘baby club’. I am aware that this pain resurfaces every now and then and I know it is a normal feeling. I have now learnt to be kind to myself and focus on the things that make me happy that I do have and this helps me get over my baby blues quicker. A good sleep helps too!
I find out if my device is ‘on’ or ‘off’ on 2nd September after a gruelling 3 lots of appointments that are scheduled all on the same day.